Space to breathe.

Space to heal.

Honestly, when they said that time heals all wounds, they weren't lying.

It's surprising to be contacted by my first boyfriend and not feel a single thing. I mean, excitement that I get to maybe patch things up with someone who used to be extremely important to me. (Guilty: I'm the type of person who wants to patch things up with anyone who wronged me, no matter how long ago it was. This usually gets me into trouble though. Trying to learn how to control it.)
But, apprehension that he'll try his old tricks again. But, confidence because I'm in an amazing relationship with my man and nothing anyone says or attempts to do can take that away from me.

And that, my friends, is such a big deal for me. Where before I would maybe try to flirt with him and keep it on the down low, now, I just want to be as cordial and nice as possible. Nothing more, nothing less. He's still a human being and he still deserves respect just as I myself deserve respect from him as well.

Yes, in my younger days, I honestly thought that nothing could touch me. I was invincible to everything, I could get away with it all, commence the evil laugh.

But you can't do that at any age. (Maybe as a baby but c'mon, show me a baby who can think on the level of deception at that age). And when you break someone's heart, you're only exposing the respect you're going to get. I really believe in the whole, Justin Timberlake, "What Goes Around (Comes Back Around)" (yes, I know that wasn't his original idea but he sings that song so well, gonna give him some credit right now).

No matter how much I get hurt by someone else, I don't want to become mean and resort to stooping to their level. True, in some circumstances, like bullying, I think you should stand up and tell that mo' fo' to sit down, shut up, and back down before you tell them exactly how you feel. There should always be respect though, some element of it needs to exist in everything that we do.

I'll step off my soap box now. I went off on a tangent.

I do need to tell my boyfriend though. Because I know if his ex-girlfriend added him, I would be... hmm. A bit bothered. I just need him to know that even though ex-boyfriend numero uno added me, doesn't mean anything about our relationship.

Growing up really did work. Learning from my lessons really paid off.

Yours till there are no more lessons to learn,
Adriana